A Hard Days Night

It's been a hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog
It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log
But when I get home to you I find the things that you do
Will make me feel alright

You know I work all day to get you money to buy you things
And it's worth it just to hear you say you're gonna give me everything
So why on earth should I moan, 'cause when I get you alone
You know I feel okay
When I'm home everything seems to be right
When I'm home feeling you holding me tight,tight,yeah
It's been a hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog
It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log
But when I get home to you I find the things that you do
Will make me feel alright 
(A Hard Day's Night)


And that about sums it up... Enjoy the pics!

In my life

...But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more (Rubber Soul)

I am 3 months old today!

Sitting in the doctor's office on Friday, I realized just how much I love my boys. They are my world. Everyone tells you that your world turns upside down when you first lay eyes and then hold your child - and I believed them.  But in the infamous words of a dear friend, it is the knock you on your ass, completely blindsiding, overwhelming sense of love -no, more than love, I couldn't find those words to be more true. I get goose bumps just thinking of the emotion Ben brings to my life!  I don't know what I would do or what would become of me if I ever lost either of them.  Tim - my rock and Ben - my breath.

So, vrey very sleepy

Ben has Stage 4 Vescioureteral Reflux.  What does this mean for the little guy?  He will be on antibiotics until he is 2. Everyday, once a day.  Hopefully it will come in the yummy, sticky, pink flavor he liked so much with the last round!  He will go back to the urologist in November and have another scan done to see if his condition is staying the same, getting better or getting worse.  Per the doctor only 1/3 of the children with stage 4 reflux grow out of it.  Once he is 2 he will likely have surgery to correct the problem.  He will only be considered for surgery sooner if he gets another urinary tract infection.

Here's lookin' at you..

With my Nana

The big guy starts day care tomorrow - yikes!!  Wish us and Miss Darla luck!

She's going to need all the help she can get!

Lots of love,
L&T

Ask Me Why...

Ask me why, I'll say I love you, and I'm always thinking of you.
I love you, 'cause you tell me things I want to know. And it's true that it really only goes to show,
That I know, that I, I, I, I should never, never, never be blue. (Please Please Me)

I have found my THUMBS! Or at least the Left one...

This week has made me think of those who love me and what they mean to me.  Work has once again slapped me with an incredible challenge - one that is fighting me with every step.  It's not just the logistics - which I can usually concur with ease and grace.  It's challenging my emotions down to every fiber of my being.  Making me think, question, re-think and question again my own personal beliefs and even ethics.  And for those of you who know me well - which I hope you do if you are reading this, you know that I am firm in my beliefs and don't question them.

Yes, I still have Daddy's eyes..

All I have wanted, no needed all week is to come home to my boys and be a Nothing.  So drained - I need to be on the couch with Ben snuggled in close to me.  Assuring me of his need for me.  Something that won't waiver (at least not until he is asking for something ridiculous at a time yet to be determined in our future).  I had Tim keep the Bug up past his bed-time last night so I could see him when I finished with my clients.  I needed him, them both, in a way I never have before.

The dogs still tend to startle him. I can understand that one!

Ok - enough of the depressing stuff!  As I said in my last post - life goes on!

So getting back to the love you's.  The two men in my life are, my eternal loves.  They make me smile in ways I never imagined possible. Take this evening. I was putting Ben's clothes away and Tim was cooking dinner with Ben.  I checked on them and Ben had the biggest grin on his face.  Melted my heart.  And this is the reason why I should never, never, never be blue.  I have a FANTASTIC husband and the most adorable baby on earth.  What more could a girl want?

We are also officially drooling.  Yeah drool..

Tomorrow is Ben's urology consult - so we will keep all posted on the outcome.  Then the poor guy has to get his 2 month shots (although tomorrow is his 3 month birthday).  I think he'll need some ice cream after - or at least a stiff drink for mom & dad!

This is his GQ look

Love to all!

Ob-la-di, Ob-la-da...

Life goes on, brah! Lala how the life goes on!
I completely feel like my life has turned into lyrics from the Beatles- we'll see how many blog entries can relate to Beatles songs over the next year...

So, how has life gone on?

I am back to work post-Ben arrival.Which is completely bittersweet.  I must admit that I am enjoying adult conversation again.  But I do miss the big eyed smiles whenever I do something silly.  (Some of my co-workers will laugh at me, but it's not the same heartwarming type of feeling!).  We are still interviewing for daycare, but I think we finally have our list widdled down to 2 providers.

On the not so happy side.  Ben went for his VCUG yesterday.  He does have a Grade III left sided kidney reflux http://www.pedisurg.com/pteduc/vesicoureteral_reflux.htm  We are now waiting for our pediatrician to set-up a consultation for us with a pediatric urologist to determine what course of treatment we will follow for the Bug.  Some options from reading are prophylactic antibiotics, just waiting it out to see if he grows out of the condition or surgery.  Tim and I aren't huge fans of the first option - we don't want him on medicine all of the time or to become immune to standard antibiotics.  But we will take the experts opinion and follow his guidance.

So - as you can see life is going on.  We are taking it one day at a time.

Thanks for stopping by!